Saturday, December 23, 2006

So much fer workin politics..

The courses been taking quite of our a time, almost fer abt a week.
Nevertheless,
though we've just started,
there were exempliary remarks everywhere abt how worse this scope wld have gotten till far..
There have been commotions and rumours all day round abt de unsatisfactions in dealing with this job.

Most of which, were the rantings about the salaries comparatively being undermined by the many tasks on hand that we've got to settle up with fer this job.
Some of them have been hoping fer 2500 bucks!

God,
I'm not sure if they're alright.


I wudnt have any idea whether it's fer the good or the bad.
Whatever it is, i wanna be on the lookout fer what's best and go fer it.
Hopefully, it's going to be on gd terms with me.
Or if it isn't, i'ld just have to pray fer the best..

God help us.

A bit of that time, or anywhere else, i'ld have been caught up with work.
Though it's only the beginning, but it's starting to fill up the tiny weeny space in life..

I'm starting to lurve it, but somehow,
my mind's still fearing fer the worse.
It's gonna be tough out there,
since anyone else who's taken this job have been experienced with years of job's involvement!

The insecurities been felt thoroughly..
My morale of confidence is quite low at this point of time.
Cos the competitions among us is rather high.
I need something to boost it up.

I'm trying to think positive.

God saves me..

We were held in captives fer two weeks!
I was wondering if it's a matter of discipline that we're separated from the rest?
6 of us..
The other colleagues we met over at the civil college questioned about our post in the hq.

How cum yer guys were there?

I've no explanation to that.
Neither were my other mates.
We're just held without any definite answers to our questions..

God saves us.


I'm kinda pissed abt it fer that matters.
Others have settled themselves in school fer abt a week now,
but we're still stuck with our tasks in the hq.
The only reason that we're provided with is,

"There's some admin matters that has to be settled.."

Fer obvious reasons,
it'ld have been rushing fer us to catch up with the workloads when we joined in on 3rd January.



What the heck were they thinking?


There's this guy in our hq.
He thinks he's the best psychic!

*pukes*

He cld read pple's mind and attitude just by looking into their eyes.
So all 6 of us went into his room the other day.
Had an ice breaker session.
Informally, all fives were analysed, and asked with questions that seems answerable to him..
Such as:

You like to buy packets of tissues from the aunty in ur void deck ryte?

You did well fer maths and sciences when u're in primary school?

So yer way of packing yer clothes is by arranging it this way.. that way.. blah..
etc..

To my astonishment, everyone said yes to his questions!


At the back of my mind, i was like..



What the heck..
What's wrong with him..
Hasn't he got a life?
Or anything better to do?

brrr..

This is soo boring.
God saves him.




I didn't like the fact that he's able to intrude one's mind and told her exactly what she's thinking.

It'll make u super uneasy dont u think so?!

But i'm glad..
Fer he didn't look at me intensely in the eye just like the rest..

OR
filled me in with his questions of all the yesses fer that matter!

So i was left wondering with the big WHYS all over.




why eh?
....
...
..
.


And there was this another guy.
I'm sharing this cos, my first day was ruined just becos of him..

Maybe, he's testing my patience,
SO....

Am i glad or what?

*sniffs*

Once upon a time, earlier in the week..
I was free from any tasks, then came this guy.

"Wld u mind follow me, i got a task fer u."

"Ok sure", i answered.

And he brought me to this distiller machine.

"This machine's spoilt, maybe u cld like try to take a look at it.
See what's wrong with it. Add a bit of water or maybe wash this top part of the deck. At least when it's ok, we all can use it and have a drink."

"Oh really, it's been here fer that long and no one ever notice that it's spoilt?", i retorted back easing with a smile.

"Oh no laa. It's only been spoilt recently.."

"Oh ok. But i think this is not part of my job scope J. Wld u mind if i carry on with other task. I'm aware that i'm out of tasks at the moment, but i dont think this is the right thing fer me to do..", i managed with a smile again.

Then there was absolute 5 secs of S I L E N C E.


"Is it ok, if u dun mind, if i let it be here and let the one who's suppose to repair this machine has the priviledge in doin so?
I'm sorry.. i just don't feel right doin this."


"Oh alright then. Ok sure.."


I dunno why the heck i'm thanking him and walked away thereafter.
Maybe just fer the purpose of basic courtesy?

I just cudnt get harsh with pple,
have no idea whyy.
Maybe something is wrong with me.




Anyways,

What the heck was he thinking.
Stepping on my head, just because i'm still new arnd here?

I've never been this pissed before.
And i'm glad by the way i handled him that day.
I wldn't have done it if i were to be sticking with my kind of attitude the last time.

This is much better.
It's a better me!
Been looking forward to be more firmer with my words on days to come!
It's fer the sake of loving yourself anyway.



tul tak??




;)




I made my MARK at 7:40 PM



Thursday, December 21, 2006

OF all de possibilities.

HELLO!
Updates on de recent happenings yeah.

;)


A few courses, essentially, needed to be taken up to prepare ourselves fer this job!
It comes in handy, but i'm still cautious about the GeBIZ system and procurement methods used.
I need to do something in order to boost my morale of confidence on this system.
I hardly reviewed the notes yesterdays.

I will pride with it tonight and all tommorows.
Unless i'd fully understand the concept, i'ld never stop trying.
Jotting down notes and constructin flowcharts might be of great help.

Any other suggestions?


It's hard to aim fer perfection, yeah.
But it'ld have been hardly enough,
if we'd aimed fer making the impossibles, Possible.

Of cos, with a bit of flaws here and there.
We've got to accept that..
Nothing's perfect.
=)


Even if it is, it'll only last fer awhile..


The phone's dead. I mean it's literally dead from my side.
An irritance when you'd wish to call up someone, but the dialing tone is nowhere to be heard.
I've got to call the service provider.


So..
let's fly kite.


I dunno why i'm so tempted to try on the wedding gown i've spotted recently, somewhere, sometime ago.

I've got no idea why and what i've been rambling towards myself these few days.

Things seemed to be out of my mind these few days.
My memories darkening, and the flashbacks, poor.


Any free VITAMIN Cs?




I made my MARK at 8:38 PM