Saturday, September 26, 2009

About the job and raya..

Let's talk abt something else..
I've got a new job. But not as new as it seems. It's been months already.. But anyways, I love the environment here. The working's tough since we have to handle a couple of tasks at one go. But environment wise, and the colleagues are sincere, friendly, fun and nice to be with. I <3 most of them.

Grandparents from Sg and Malaysia are here. They're here to celebrate Hari Raya with us (:
I'm missing the days where the green packets used to be so thick and collections can go as much as 200 bucks. Missed those days.
Too bad now that we've entered into the adult life, it's going to be vice versa. What to do. Everyone just grow old in age thru time.. lol

I made my MARK at 11:47 AM

About a dream..

Have always been missing in action. Apologies to my blog. lol. There is a reason for my presence here, you should have guess. It's just because of a weird dream that I have had yesterday.
I dreamt of him..
And it was a weird dream.

He was with someone else. They were sitting together at one corner, when i spotted them. The girl's hand was around his neck, and at that moment of time, our eyes locked. He became nervous. I stared at him and the hands arnd him intensely. The moment he noticed that I was lookin at him, he quickly brushed the hand aside.

What's that suppose to mean? Is he seeing someone new right now? I woke up with a sense of jealousy overpowering me..

And up till now, the dream's still lurkin arnd in my mind...

I made my MARK at 11:35 AM

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

welcome aboard.

Hello.
welcome aboard to me!
sucha long time yeah. Used to be a passice blogger the last time. Blogging non-stop. Skipping meal routines. Skipping whatever routines. Dumping mood tantrums over the blog. That's me. Shld be glad that I'm starting it all over again. I'm blogging again!! Kudos from me to myself.

Lotsa stories lately to fill up someone's time. A few others might be waiting fer me to drop it down like a bombshell. A few lot wld have no idea what I'm talking about.

Well then, have patience. The stories about to start in a few days or so.. Till then, give me time to revamp this blog. The look is literally, horrendous.

I made my MARK at 4:40 PM

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Where is the love?

Di manakah nilai cintamu
Oh kasih terhadap diriku
Mengapakah kau bercumbu
Dengan dia itu
Di depan mataku

Tak kusangka sanggup hatimu
Menduakan diriku
Setelah ku beri cinta
Serta jiwa raga
Engkau musnahkannya

Di manakah nilai cintamu oh kasih
Engkau musnahkan
Di kala aku merindu
Di manakah sumpah dan janjimu dulu
Untuk bersama berdua kita bersama

Hancur hampa terima berita
Kini kau diijabkabulkan
Berbahagia dan sejahtera
Dengan dia itu
Hatiku terharu

Berlinang airmata ini
Kerana dirimu oh kasih
Tak pernah terduga hatiku
Begitu murahnya
Cintamu padaku

-Allahyarham Sudirman Haji Arshad

I made my MARK at 12:37 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Prickly sentiments.

This is a truly inspiring phenomena.
To be bullied. To be battered by discouraging words.
It just keeps getting better.
I'm telling you.
Everything's just keep getting better each day..

No point the blabberings.
All the useless rantings.
Fer all de usual ramblings.
No POINT.

Cos' in the end, I'll only listen to myself.
=)

Be all that you wanna be.
I'm not pushing.
So don't push me.
Save yourself for all the glory.

Yes, I'm hard.
Egoistical and stupidified.
But why can't you just gt the point across?

The harder the person is, the more clingy the person gets.
I need a pillar.
An emotional support.
All the TLCs in world.
I'm asking fer too much.
Yes;

Now, I can only see myself in the mirror.

So it makes me being harder each day.
Get that?

NoUDont.

I made my MARK at 9:19 AM

Saturday, December 23, 2006

So much fer workin politics..

The courses been taking quite of our a time, almost fer abt a week.
Nevertheless,
though we've just started,
there were exempliary remarks everywhere abt how worse this scope wld have gotten till far..
There have been commotions and rumours all day round abt de unsatisfactions in dealing with this job.

Most of which, were the rantings about the salaries comparatively being undermined by the many tasks on hand that we've got to settle up with fer this job.
Some of them have been hoping fer 2500 bucks!

God,
I'm not sure if they're alright.

I wudnt have any idea whether it's fer the good or the bad.
Whatever it is, i wanna be on the lookout fer what's best and go fer it.
Hopefully, it's going to be on gd terms with me.
Or if it isn't, i'ld just have to pray fer the best..

God help us.

A bit of that time, or anywhere else, i'ld have been caught up with work.
Though it's only the beginning, but it's starting to fill up the tiny weeny space in life..

I'm starting to lurve it, but somehow,
my mind's still fearing fer the worse.
It's gonna be tough out there,
since anyone else who's taken this job have been experienced with years of job's involvement!

The insecurities been felt thoroughly..
My morale of confidence is quite low at this point of time.
Cos the competitions among us is rather high.
I need something to boost it up.

I'm trying to think positive.

God saves me..

We were held in captives fer two weeks!
I was wondering if it's a matter of discipline that we're separated from the rest?
6 of us..
The other colleagues we met over at the civil college questioned about our post in the hq.

How cum yer guys were there?

I've no explanation to that.
Neither were my other mates.
We're just held without any definite answers to our questions..

God saves us.

I'm kinda pissed abt it fer that matters.
Others have settled themselves in school fer abt a week now,
but we're still stuck with our tasks in the hq.
The only reason that we're provided with is,

"There's some admin matters that has to be settled.."

Fer obvious reasons,
it'ld have been rushing fer us to catch up with the workloads when we joined in on 3rd January.

What the heck were they thinking?

There's this guy in our hq.
He thinks he's the best psychic!

*pukes*

He cld read pple's mind and attitude just by looking into their eyes.
So all 6 of us went into his room the other day.
Had an ice breaker session.
Informally, all fives were analysed, and asked with questions that seems answerable to him..
Such as:

You like to buy packets of tissues from the aunty in ur void deck ryte?

You did well fer maths and sciences when u're in primary school?

So yer way of packing yer clothes is by arranging it this way.. that way.. blah..
etc..

To my astonishment, everyone said yes to his questions!

At the back of my mind, i was like..

What the heck..
What's wrong with him..
Hasn't he got a life?
Or anything better to do?

brrr..

This is soo boring.
God saves him.

I didn't like the fact that he's able to intrude one's mind and told her exactly what she's thinking.

It'll make u super uneasy dont u think so?!

But i'm glad..
Fer he didn't look at me intensely in the eye just like the rest..

OR
filled me in with his questions of all the yesses fer that matter!

So i was left wondering with the big WHYS all over.

why eh?
....
...
..
.

And there was this another guy.
I'm sharing this cos, my first day was ruined just becos of him..

Maybe, he's testing my patience,
SO....

Am i glad or what?

*sniffs*

Once upon a time, earlier in the week..
I was free from any tasks, then came this guy.

"Wld u mind follow me, i got a task fer u."

"Ok sure", i answered.

And he brought me to this distiller machine.

"This machine's spoilt, maybe u cld like try to take a look at it.
See what's wrong with it. Add a bit of water or maybe wash this top part of the deck. At least when it's ok, we all can use it and have a drink."

"Oh really, it's been here fer that long and no one ever notice that it's spoilt?", i retorted back easing with a smile.

"Oh no laa. It's only been spoilt recently.."

"Oh ok. But i think this is not part of my job scope J. Wld u mind if i carry on with other task. I'm aware that i'm out of tasks at the moment, but i dont think this is the right thing fer me to do..", i managed with a smile again.

Then there was absolute 5 secs of S I L E N C E.

"Is it ok, if u dun mind, if i let it be here and let the one who's suppose to repair this machine has the priviledge in doin so?
I'm sorry.. i just don't feel right doin this."

"Oh alright then. Ok sure.."

I dunno why the heck i'm thanking him and walked away thereafter.
Maybe just fer the purpose of basic courtesy?

I just cudnt get harsh with pple,
have no idea whyy.
Maybe something is wrong with me.

Anyways,

What the heck was he thinking.
Stepping on my head, just because i'm still new arnd here?

I've never been this pissed before.
And i'm glad by the way i handled him that day.
I wldn't have done it if i were to be sticking with my kind of attitude the last time.

This is much better.
It's a better me!
Been looking forward to be more firmer with my words on days to come!
It's fer the sake of loving yourself anyway.

tul tak??

;)